Thursday, August 28, 2008

Homeschooling update

Woooh woooh woooh wait a minute. This is kind of like when I had my first baby and left my job and it was winter time and we were stuck inside a lot and here was this little toddler of mine (toddler in size, but only days old) and I was now home without any ongoing socialization because uh yeah I had only left my job about three days before my water broke and so here I was a brand spanking new stay-at-home mommy--all my friends were working and my sister in laws were busy and my husband left me home all alone after just a week--and uh, yeah that pretty much sums up how I feel. Wow. Homeschooling is hard work. And, just like when I left my career to become a mom, I wonder, why didn't anyone tell me it would be like this? Don't get me wrong, I love being a mom and I am so thankful that I have had the privilege of being home with my boys all these years. And, I am privileged to be able to homeschool my boys. But, this is exhausting stuff. And, I still feel like I'm not getting enough done!
But, you know what, just as it was difficult to adjust to life as a mommy--I know that in time, I will cope and learn what to do in order to be a successful homeschooler. I know the resources are there--I know I have support from both family, friends, local and on-line homeschoolers. But, most importantly, I have the guidance and direction and strength from the Lord. I sank to my knees this week praying and sadly, I hadn't done that in a long time.
I also know that just because I struggle, it doesn't mean it's not working and it doesn't mean it isn't worth it. It's so worth it. I know that already.
When, I have time and a well thought out post, I will post about our curriculum and our first few days.


Beth said...

I am so glad you are able to be honest!

We have all "felt" those same feelings.

"Big Hugs"

Yeah I remember coming home from working full time the week before my first was born. It was very shocking to make that transition. It was easier working full time right!

sara's art house said...

I think that everyone who homeschools has these REALLY hard days and weeks, and it is not easy and we have to DIE to ourselves.....but maybe we don't say it enough b/c we would never want to discourage someone from homeschooling b/c we know how worth it it is!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU CAN DO IT!!! YOU CAN DO IT!!! IT will get better! I know your kids are older and I am sure it it a TASK- but you are right, God will sustain you!

McNeill Family said...

Great job!!! The hardest part for me is being so transparent to my kids. They see every wart! I get the question "do you like home schooling?" at times and try to keep that in the back of my mind when my attitude needs some adjusting! Refresh yourself this weekend!!!

Lisa said...

Years ago, my best friend would call me at work crying, "I can't do this," when she was home with her infant. Yet, she did it.

You are tackling the hardest and most important job in the world, not only being their mom, but teaching them. Nothing can replace a stable home and loving parents. I am grateful I had that and your sons will be as well.

I admire you for what you are doing. And once you get into a schedule, you'll be fine.


Fifi said...

You will have more days like those!!!! (sorry to inform you!hehe) BUT........ the wonderful days DO outweigh the bad ones!
That's what us blogging friends are here for..... SUPPORT!!!!
love to you xx

Elinor Dashwood said...

Hey girl, just checking in to see how you're doing with school!! Are you into a routine yet or are you pretty much taking it day by day? I've been wondering how it's going since you wrote this post. Hope all is well!!

Big hugs,